Operation Ugly Duckling: Make myself feel good about myself. No more, “Because I’m fat,” or “I would if I weren’t so fat and disgusting. ” My babies deserve a better example.

So Day One, I do 2 miles on the treadmill in 40 minutes. Not impressive, but for me, it’s a BFD. My hips, calves, and lower back are screaming… The gym, for a change, was not filled with normal people, but super-fit high school athletes and other jock-types. I thought I had blinders, but the one average woman in the gym found the treadmill next to me and also commented… I felt like a slob for 40 minutes. Sitting in my car… turn it on and no lie, FUCKING PERFECT is on my CD, which was on shuffle… So I cried… and now I am going home where I have to convince myself I’m not hungry…

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